May (Part One)

· The biggest thing cluttering my life for the last 11 years which I let go of last month was my job at HMV. It was frightening in the most wonderful way to not have another job to go to. For the last 11 years I had defined myself by my job- I ‘belonged’ to HMV, and for most of that time I was proud of that fact. I’m a loyal person and tend to cling on to things far longer than what is sometimes healthy, but I was in a huge rut and didn't realise it until I let it go.

· In the 5 weeks after I quit, I came to realise how good it is not to define yourself by your job. I was so used to being a daggy, jeans and joggers wearing music shop worker, I forgot what it was like to wear makeup and nice clothes on a daily basis. I began to realise that I can go in any direction I want to, and that the world is open to me.

· I’m working on reading a book loaned to me by my friend, Nicole – Crowded House’s biography. It’s been 6 months maybe since she gave it to me, and I started it straight away, but gave up and got so distracted by other books, I haven’t touched it in months. It’s been sitting on the floor by my bed ever since, the faces of the 3 boys looking up at me every time I go past, begging me to either read their story or give them back to their owner. I debated just giving it back to her but I honestly am interested in reading it, it’s just that I haven’t really been in the mood for biographies lately; I’ve been taken with novels and how-to books. I now plan to read a bit every day or two when I’m in the mood to concentrate on it and hopefully by the end of next month be able to add that book to my list of clutter I have cleared!